Mommy On The Edge

Will this roller coaster ride ever end? Since December, our little one has been so sick and not with just a typical cold here and there. It has been an ear infection, pneumonia, influenze A,sinus infections, and RSV. Not to mention the occasional seizure due to fevers. Honestly, Mommy is feeling like I can't take much more of it. It is absolutely wearing me thin to see my baby so ill constantly and not be able to somehow prevent it. I mean, that is my job, right? As her Mommy, I am suppose to shield her from all of this and more. I really feel like I am failing my daughter. It is killing me. Every time we are ready to do the sedated MRI, she gets sick and we have to postpone it. I know God has His plan, but I am desperately seeking it right now. All the prayers that people are saying for her are such a comfort, but I am really struggling to stay upbeat and positive. I didn't realize just how bad I was getting until an acquaintance from church saw me and the first words he spoke to me were "Are you okay?" Yes, I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve, but I try hard not to be that expressionate with my face. My mind is constantly in a whirlwind and every time she gets ill, it is crushing me. Her MRI has been rescheduled for the 18th--pray that we make it and that this chapter of our lives will close soon. I am sorry to have vented, but I am looking forward to spring and the return to health for Evelyn. Please keep praying for her--she needs them so much.